I've been feeling out of sorts lately; a little overwhelmed and anxious. Here are some symptoms that I've had this week:
I've had way more energy. I've gotten "snappy" when I've been distracted or interrupted from my work. Little things have bothered me. I've felt like I could cry for no reason. I've been critical of others. I've felt sorry for myself and I've been fearful of the future.
I'm not always the first to realize what's going on but Thank God it doesn't take me months to realize it like before. So on Tuesday, I came home from work, went on a run with Anna and told her that I was NOT allowed to look at or do any work for the rest of the day. I took the rest of the evening to be present and evaluate the past few weeks.
The biggest thing that I realized I had stopped doing was getting up at having my quiet time with the Lord. It has been sporadic over the summer but for the past few weeks has been non...
This was a post I made 10 years ago. As I read it, I became overwhelmed with gratitude at the growth I've made over the years. It's hard for me to believe that I was unnerved by such trivial things, yet I remember the rage (I don't use that term lightly) and anxiety that would jump on me over the least little thing.
People who only know me post yoga, would never guess that I was previously diagnosed with bipolar disorder, depression and anxiety. I've been physically agressive, verbally abusive, had an affair, and attempted suicide. I know, I sound like the worst!
But here's what I found when I started this growth journey. You don't know what you don't know and you can't give what you don't have. So how do we become aware of the things we don't know and receive what we've never been given? Well, it doesn't just happen, that's for sure!
It is NOT true that wisdom comes with age. I know a lot of "older" folks...
- Kim Honeycutt
I was chatting with my friend and Psychotherapist, Kim Honeycutt, the other day. She is going to be speaking again at this year's Empowerment Tour and she dropped this little nugget of truth on me and blew my mind wide open.
I ruminated on it all day and here are my thoughts:
Constantly being offended and taking things personally is a sign of emotional immaturity. Blaming others and making assumptions about what someone said/did and allowing that assumption to bring on anxiety is a sign of emotional immaturity. The emotionally immature Christian can read the Bible front to back and church it up every Sunday but will never be able to spiritually outgrow where they are emotionally. Saying “emotionally immature” sounds harsh but you don’t know what you don’t know. So no judgements. I’ve been there. (Still am on a lot of things, I’m sure!)
I held a Community Yoga event the other day. It was in a public location and open to all! We had 30 people there. A guy comes walking in whom I've never met before. I greeted him and asked him if he had ever practiced yoga before, to which he replied, "never." I was immediately impressed.
I hear excuses all day long as to why people won't try yoga. I can see how some people think it's intimidating, so I don't mean any judgement when I say it's an excuse. I'm just calling it what it is.
BUT here's the good news: There are so many different styles of yoga. Not everyone loves dripping sweat and getting upside down every chance they can get. Maybe yin or restorative yoga is more your pace. Maybe attention to detail and alignment is more your thing. There are so many types of yoga, there's a place for everyone!
I told "the new guy", which is what we will affectionately call him, that so...
Last Friday, I decided to run by Hammond's Ferry to take a picture for an ad I'm doing. I NEVER do this because Friday mornings are pretty busy for me and I just go home to relax before picking the girls up. But I had energy and knew it wouldn't take long so I busted a u-ie and off I went.
I park, gather my things and start walking to the dock. I see a young man sitting under the pavilion, staring at his phone. Usually I would just roll my mat out and pretend like I was going to practice all along. I mean, how weird is it to just roll your mat out, set up blocks to hold your phone, strike a pose while sipping some Alo water and then leave?!?! I can practice yoga all day long in public but taking pictures is a whole different thing.
I gave myself a mental pep talk as I walked: "Who cares what this guy thinks? You're a grown woman. You're getting paid for this picture so you're basically just doing your job....
If you’re new to yoga and you’re just scrolling through Instagram looking at all of these challenging poses of women who must be the spawn of Gumby and the Hulk, you might be a little discouraged that you aren’t where they are.
But here’s what you don’t see behind that beautifully executed and possibly edited pose...and hopefully this is encouraging to you...
You don’t see the years and hours put in. You haven’t scrolled back to that person’s very first photo to compare to where they are now. I’ve been practicing yoga for 10 years! That’s a whole decade!! And there were seasons of my life where I could get a solid 1.5 - 2 hr practice in! Not so much these days but boy did my practice propel when I could.
(These pictures are 7 years apart)
You don’t see the person’s background either. I took gymnastics for a few years in elementary/middle school. Granted, my Coach gave me cigarettes so I don't know how...
Faith - when you’re “hope so” becomes a “be so.” - Andy Stanley
We are in a new series at church called Fresh Faith. Our pastor shared a scripture I’ve never heard before and it hit me like a ton of bricks. Before I share what that scripture is, let me give you a quick, little backstory:
Abraham is called the Father of many nations and the Father of Faith because when God instructed him to “leave your household, your country and your father’s house to the land I will show you…”, (Gen 12:1) he did. He obeyed and by faith took his family to Canaan, the Promised Land and received all the benefits and promises God had for him.
So here’s the scripture that was shared with us on Sunday:
“Terah took his son Abram (later named Abraham), his grandson Lot, son of Haran, and his daughter-in-law Sarai, the wife of his son Abram, and together they set out from Ur of the Chaldeans to go to Canaan. ...
Your entire day is made up of seemingly insignificant decisions and habits. And those seemingly insignificant decisions make up your entire life. So if you want to change your life, change your days.
1. Get moving - Move your body 10-20 minutes a day. That's not a long time. Some of you may do more than that, but wherever you are on the "fitness" spectrum, set a realistic goal. Go for a walk, practice yoga with me or anybody for that matter. Just move yo body! You only have this one! Make sure you take care of it.
2. Quiet Time - Set aside some time every day to spend with God, meditate, read or journal. I've been getting up 25 minutes earlier than what I normally do...which is now my new normal. I read my devotional, my Bible, pray and sit quietly. I do all of that in 25-30 minutes and it has made the biggest difference in my days.
It's so important to get...
Whether you call them "Self Help" books or "Personal Development" books, learning from others and reading about different perspectives is never a bad thing.
I believe people who sarcastically call them Self Help books (I know a few!) are either bitter because you're trying to get help/learn or they're too arrogant to learn from others.
Reading for 10 minutes a day is one of the things I'm going to be talking about in my next blog: "5 things to Do and 5 things to Stop doing in the New Year."
And when I say "read everyday", I'm not just talking about any old book. Put down the trash or the fantasy novels that take you away from your reality. Read books that are going to inspire you, push you towards your goals and make you a better person.
So here are a few of my faves:
1. The Bible - God: For me, this one is kind of a no brainer. As a huge fan and...
I am moving into online content and that requires video recording. Well you have to have equipment and lighting and space to do that. None of which I have. And I could easily say "I'll start when I can afford that really nice camera" or "I'll start when I have a home with enough space for me to record" and I could go on and on about the things that I "need" to get started.
The thing is we don't actually need that much to get started. So for the longest time, I packed up a table and plants and my computer and my microphone and hauled it all to my friend's studio 20 minutes away. Unpacked it all and recorded for hours on my little ole iphone 7.
Driving and hauling all of that around has since become tiresome, so I moved my "dining room" table into my kitchen, took a massive canvas painting of my child off the wall, took the shade off my lamp and created a tiny little "office" where I could record. And no one will...